Just Me

I don't do heroics
I don't aspire to sainthood
of the canonical kind
Martyrdom, extreme suffering
are not for me
It's not that I don't love you, Lord
I'm just not cut of the same cloth
as St. Teresa or John of the Cross
I just want to be faithful
in everyday matters
Become more kind and more generous
little by little
day by day

No fasts of heroic proportions
No levitations or miracles
No millions saved or thousands fed
Just to become more
patient with my kids
less critical of my husband
more thankful and prayerful
Is enough for me

I don't want to be great, Lord
I just want to be
who You made me to be
Please don't expect
big things of me
Detachment and sacrifice are scary words
I just want to love better
the people in my life
I just want to appreciate
the gifts You give
To be awed at
Your love and creativity
I just want to live
present and peaceful
with what is before me
I just want to be a better me
'cause You made me and love me
and are always with me
And especially I never want to forget that
but live with awareness of Your
constant companionship

I want to be little and obscure
content with the roles I'm in
faithful to the tasks at hand
true to the relationships I'm in
open to You

Just me
I just want to be me
with You
Not the old me
the false me of sin
but me cleansed and free
The me You envisioned
when the world began
when You endured the cross
when You look at me now
Just me